December~ Alyssa Aileen Hope~
I’m not so sure what it is about this month that I just don’t like. December just seems to make everything bad worse. I find it very hard to be optimistic and cheery in December; which is ironic because most of the world is on a rose-colored high. I think it’s the ending. Because whether it is a happy or not-so-happy ending, endings are always a little sad for me. It seems to be the one thing that I find it hard to be positive about.
I don’t think that this year has been particularly bad, but it hasn’t been particularly good either, but to see it leave is a bit disconcerting. I honestly think that 2005 just went by too fast. What did I accomplish this year? I sadly must admit: Not much. I feel like I am in the same boat I was last winter. I thought by this time I would have figured out “Life” a bit more. Life can be frustrating when you think you have it all figured out then, BAM, it pulls the rug from your feet and you land on your bottom.
Maybe I just don’t like December because it seems to be “the month to accomplish everything.” It seems the world procrastinates and then the longest to-do list just lands on your lap and this just leaves me scrambling to find time to do everything. For instance, between finals, the visit of the CO, and job training, it will be a miracle if I make my time this month. I have already resolved that I just can’t make my time without giving up sleeping, which although I have considered, don’t really think is a plausible alternative. But that is okay. January is a good month, one I always look forward to. January is always a much needed breather month. One of fresh beginnings, snowmen, and down time. By then December is over and done with and I am no longer clinging on to the past year. But it seems to get there can be a bit of a challenge. I just can’t seem to get over the bump in the road that is December. The month full of finals, paganisms, and sleet.
But I am Alyssa Hope. Which translates to, I look on the bright side of things. Yes, December may be a HARD month for me to be optimistic about. But by gosh, we’re gonna give it our best shot! So this December we aren’t going to stress. We aren’t going to strive for perfection. We are going to look back on the year and shake our hands and think, “We’ll get ‘em in 2006.” We are going to focus on the positive. Hey I may not be visiting Aunt Nancy this month, but hey we might be going snowboarding instead. I have a lovely Brooklyn weekend planned. I have a new job. That should be fun or at least something new to try! We have the CO. I got picked to be in the Pioneer Assist Others Program. I have the warmest room in the house. I have a lovely new lip-gloss. I have two bible studies. It is undeniable that Jehovah has answered my prayers these past few months. I may not be the perfection of health, but at least I’m not as sick as I was last year. I have the loveliest people in my life, who are always supportive in a time of need. There are a couple of new CDs to listen to and some really good shows to relax to.
So even if I don’t have a lot of time to accomplish my goals this December, I’m gonna hold on to them for January and not give up. I will get through this December with a little bit of dignity and hopefully some sleep and then 2006, watch out because I shall CONQUER YOU! (See it always fairs better to dwell on the bright side!) J
I’m not so sure what it is about this month that I just don’t like. December just seems to make everything bad worse. I find it very hard to be optimistic and cheery in December; which is ironic because most of the world is on a rose-colored high. I think it’s the ending. Because whether it is a happy or not-so-happy ending, endings are always a little sad for me. It seems to be the one thing that I find it hard to be positive about.
I don’t think that this year has been particularly bad, but it hasn’t been particularly good either, but to see it leave is a bit disconcerting. I honestly think that 2005 just went by too fast. What did I accomplish this year? I sadly must admit: Not much. I feel like I am in the same boat I was last winter. I thought by this time I would have figured out “Life” a bit more. Life can be frustrating when you think you have it all figured out then, BAM, it pulls the rug from your feet and you land on your bottom.
Maybe I just don’t like December because it seems to be “the month to accomplish everything.” It seems the world procrastinates and then the longest to-do list just lands on your lap and this just leaves me scrambling to find time to do everything. For instance, between finals, the visit of the CO, and job training, it will be a miracle if I make my time this month. I have already resolved that I just can’t make my time without giving up sleeping, which although I have considered, don’t really think is a plausible alternative. But that is okay. January is a good month, one I always look forward to. January is always a much needed breather month. One of fresh beginnings, snowmen, and down time. By then December is over and done with and I am no longer clinging on to the past year. But it seems to get there can be a bit of a challenge. I just can’t seem to get over the bump in the road that is December. The month full of finals, paganisms, and sleet.
But I am Alyssa Hope. Which translates to, I look on the bright side of things. Yes, December may be a HARD month for me to be optimistic about. But by gosh, we’re gonna give it our best shot! So this December we aren’t going to stress. We aren’t going to strive for perfection. We are going to look back on the year and shake our hands and think, “We’ll get ‘em in 2006.” We are going to focus on the positive. Hey I may not be visiting Aunt Nancy this month, but hey we might be going snowboarding instead. I have a lovely Brooklyn weekend planned. I have a new job. That should be fun or at least something new to try! We have the CO. I got picked to be in the Pioneer Assist Others Program. I have the warmest room in the house. I have a lovely new lip-gloss. I have two bible studies. It is undeniable that Jehovah has answered my prayers these past few months. I may not be the perfection of health, but at least I’m not as sick as I was last year. I have the loveliest people in my life, who are always supportive in a time of need. There are a couple of new CDs to listen to and some really good shows to relax to.
So even if I don’t have a lot of time to accomplish my goals this December, I’m gonna hold on to them for January and not give up. I will get through this December with a little bit of dignity and hopefully some sleep and then 2006, watch out because I shall CONQUER YOU! (See it always fairs better to dwell on the bright side!) J
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