When No One Is Looking

As you all are aware, I work out of my home. Because of this, I have developed strange habits that one day, if caught on tape, will be the end of my life. Between the sitting in front of the computer with my knees to my chin and my arms hugging my legs whilst typing, to the ever frequent silent dialog to an imaginary audience, it's quite embarassing.

Then there's this morning, when I got up to make myself a cup of coffee and began signing(as in sign language) about making coffee...which then fully grew into me pretending I was an ASL interpreter in front of a large crowd of deaf people, trying to be as emphatic as possible-complete with facial expressions! And I was good! How about the days that I don't do much with myself by way of dress & grooming (because who's gonna see me, right?) so I have my jimjams on with my hair in a piled rats' nest upon my head.

I remember this as being an integral part of my life. When I was younger we lived at the end of a cul-de-sac, so my brothers and sister and I would frequently play in it. On the days when everyone was doing their own thing, I'd strap on my roller skates and would skate and skate and twirl and jump and bow, imagining that I was performing before judges and spectators. When I was playing indoors by myself, I'd stand up on my bed and take any cylindrical item in hand and sing and dance for my adoring fans...and occasionally I'd lean down to kiss a male fan on the cheek.

But my favorite freak moment is when I've just got off the phone with a client or contact and helped solve a problem. I hang up, excitedly clap my hands, then laugh for being so proud of myself...too much information? Oh I don't think so. There are so many moments when I'm so glad that no one else is around to judge me...it's bad enough that I think I'm geek.

Then again, it's times when you catch someone surreptitiously attempting a little bop to their favorite Beyonce song, that you find peoples' most adorable qualities. When you happen upon someone who is contentedly singing to themselves as they are busy at task, that you think how precious they really are. I suppose when all the defenses are down, we glimpse the rare gem of a conservative person. They're found out and there's no taking back the fact that they are just as much of a lovable yahoo as you suspected them to be.